Having one of those days where you can't get out of the slump?

Don't: mope

Do: put on your fave pj's, grab the best romantic comedy and a bottle of wine and maybe even a carton of Ben and Jerry's and then mope your heart out!

Who ever said we can't have a bad day?

"Tears are words the heart can't express"

What a day...

February 14, 2011 Valentine's Day:

4:22 a.m.: happy valentine's day text from a friend received

8:21 a.m.: valentine's day hug text from a friend received

8:22 a.m.: realize how late it is and remember that I need to get to Walmart to pick up the pictures for brother's star student week

8:25 a.m.: rush out of the house with no shower or make up :(

9 a.m.: get pictures at Walmart, deposit checks at bank, drive to Seattle Drip and notice homeless man in the parking lot

At this point, my heart began to break. God was definitely speaking to me. I began to cry. I could not leave the parking lot without talking to this man. I parked my car and for a while I watched people drive by. An elderly man stopped and talked to him. Then a woman drove by and gave him some money. I realized that just because I don't have a valentine today, I can still show love. I have been so bitter about "I hate this holiday because I'm single and everyone else is happy and in love". So, I went through Seattle Drip, got my morning coffee, and tried to wipe away my tears. I didn't want him to see me crying. I drove back around and parked my car across from his. I talked to him for about 20 minutes. I really didn't know what to say, but words just began to pour out. I gave him some money and a little hand written note, but I still feel like that isn't enough. My heart hurts so much for the homeless. Their stories are so interesting. They worry if they'll eat the next day. I'm so blessed to have a roof over my head, to be able to go to school, to eat. God really showed me today that He does love all of us. He's taking care of us. His plans are bigger and better than anything we could imagine.

9:45 a.m.: I left Kent with a prayer for his safety and hope to find work. I'll never forget this man. He really changed my view on today.

Show someone love today.

Love Has a Thousand Faces

great song I stumbled across.

Randy Montana – 1,000 Faces Lyrics

There’s brunettes, blonde girls
Blue jeans, string of pearls
Take you on a trip around the world girls
Love has a 1,000 faces
Love has a 1,000 faces

There’s debutantes, drama queens
Glued to Bride magazine
Half caff, two pump, no whip in the Coffee Bean
Love has a 1,000 faces
Love has a 1,000 faces
But I see you
Before I ever knew you
Before I ever knew you
I dreamed of you
I dreamed of you

There’s small town, itty-bitty
Tomboy in a big city
Turn your head when the light ain’t red
Stop traffic, kind of pretty
Love has a 1,000 faces
Love has a 1,000 faces
But I see you
Before I ever knew you
Before I ever knew you
I dreamed of you
I dreamed of you, yeah

You’re a storm at night, thunder crashing
Mystery, full of passion
Quiet as a Sunday morning
Change without any warning
Love has a 1,000 faces
Love has a 1,000 faces
But I see you
I see you
I see you
Baby, I see you
And I see you
Before I ever knew you
Before I ever knew you
Before I ever knew you
Before I ever knew you
I see you

“Life’s better with company. Everyone needs a co-pilot.” –Up in the Air

These words stand so true. Today, January 17, 2011, I sit and think about how my life was two months ago. I was happy, very happy. My life was good. Good family, good friends, work, school, etc. I even had a boyfriend, a very exceptional boyfriend. Five days after two months ago from today, my very happy turned to extremely sad. It’s not the kind of, “you ate my last cookie” or “I failed my big exam” sad. It was the “I thought my life was all planned out” kind of sad. I was confused, betrayed, and in denial. The man I thought loved me no longer did, and I did not understand it, nor did I want to. See, I had it all figured out, or so I thought. We had our lives planned out. And, I know, God’s plans are bigger than mine, and everything works out in His timing. I pray that I get my co-pilot back or the perfect co-pilot that God places at the altar for me. Let God plan your life. Let God find your co-pilot.

KH

breakup blues

i don't know why this happened
i don't know why he doesn't care
where did the feelings go?
a week ago, they were there

we had fun times together
rarely did we fight
i miss the hugs he gave me
and the "i love you, goodnight"

i pray each day his feelings come back
i don't know what else to do
there's nothing else i can say
to the one i love so true

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How do you care without looking selfish?

How do you show love by wanting him to stay?

When do the "what ifs" cease to exist?

And, when do you see answers to the prayers you pray?

It’s Time To Bring Back the Spark

Some may say a good relationship primarily consists of physical activity. Someone else may say that it is all about their individual success. Their individual statuses make them grow as a couple. I however, define a good relationship as happiness and love. Blah, blah, blah. Yes, we have all heard it before, but really who wants to be in a relationship with an unhappy person?

I know I don’t. I want a relationship where I can trust the other person. I want him to trust me as well. I would love for us to have our own set of friends. If I need a girl’s night out, then I’ll go, and he can have his night with the boys. But, we should also get along with each other’s friends. It’s good to mingle as long as there is an understanding that you are committed in your relationship.

Have you seen the couples that say they are happy and that “everything is wonderful”? Have you noticed their body language? Let’s say that you are at dinner with your fiancé. He introduces you to his boss and wife at a nearby table. You know they have issues. She is clearly stressed about something and he just eats his food without saying a word. Conversation is dead. When they leave, he doesn’t even touch her. No arm around the waist. Nothing! It’s nonsense. Do you want your relationship to be that way? I think not! Make it a happy relationship. It doesn’t take hard labor, it just takes effort.

1. When you see your boyfriend, fiancé, ect…tell him he looks good. Ask him if he has been to the gym. He loves the attention. Grab his arms and talk about how big they have gotten. Don’t make his ego too big though. All guys love this. It lets them know that you do look at them. Sometimes guys don’t think that they are buff enough. They even think they are fat at times. It’s silly because we know they are gorgeous. We just need to remind them.

2. Send him an email during the day, while he is at work. Just tell him what you love about him. He may even send you a response.

3. Let there be sparks in your relationship again. If you are married or you just don’t date as much as you used to, ask if ya’ll can go out, just the two of you. If you really haven’t been out in a while, don’t go to the movies. Guys get tired of that, especially chick flicks. That’s what your girlfriends are for. Girls, I know that they don’t make a big deal about it at the time, but on the inside they are waiting for the blood and gore. Do something spontaneous. Go on a weekend vacation, or go dancing. Do something that will bring back the sparks in the relationship.

I bet you are wondering who is she to be giving relationship advice? I may be only 19, but I’ve dated my fair share of jerks, and even some really nice guys. I’ve watched plenty of movies, and I really just felt like writing. I’ll stop my dramatic rage about relationships now. To end this, at 3:30 am, I just want to say, if the spark is not there, bring it back. It just might save your relationship.